why it snows in April

“Our lives are not as limited as we think they are; the world is a wonderfully weird place; consensual reality is significantly flawed; no institution can be trusted, but love does work; all things are possible; and we could all be happy and fulfilled if we only had the guts to be truly free and the wisdom to shrink our egos and quit taking ourselves so damn seriously. ” – Tom Robins

It actually snowed in the middle of April. I remember last year I had tan lines from working in the garden by now. My little kale plants were just starting to emerge from the tilthy black soil and here we all were, blanketed with this heavy, white snow… which means it is not warm enough for tan lines out there! Only the bravest and most desperate for a tan-straight-from-the-sun of souls would dare to encourage such a thing!

Well, I got to pondering what the hell Mother Nature was trying to say? I mean, there is a part of me that chooses to resign it is all a matter of global warming, and personally, I think if it is going to be called “warming”, it ought to measure up to its title… snow seems terribly counter-intuitive to warming. Alas. Well, global warming is likely under the guise of Ms. M. N. as well, I suppose, in the big picture, so what of that? Here is what I concluded – she wanted to get us riled up about something, she wanted us to be filled with wonder, she wanted us to stop and notice, she wanted us to engage with each other – I know nearly the first thing out of my mouth to everyone I spoke with was, “Can you really believe it is snowing… On April 16th?… what is up with that?” – and the weather is always an incredibly easy topic to engage with strangers over. And, secretly (or not so much anymore if I’m posting it here) I LOVE it when the branches are outlined with snow – it is like magic icing on everything and I feel full of wonder when my eyes embrace it. It totally enraptures me – and feels like a fairy tale.

In retrospect, I kind of like M.N.’s strategy. I mean, she’s freakin’ brilliant, because it worked masterfully! If you stopped to watch what was happening, it was so beautiful – just the act of those snow flakes, each one intricate and delicate and spectacular, so who cares that is it April, because this is truly witnessing a miracle in the ordinary… or not so ordinary, depending on the time of year (I guess, which should heighten the sense of specialness). And, to know, which we all do, that the snow will just fleetingly be here, and it is such a gentle way to put moisture into the soil – it’s more like a kiss that way, the gentle coming together of flake and earthly matter. It is hopeful to find the beauty in what we cannot control. (P.S. – you will get to the bottom of this blog to read a quote from Alice in Wonderland, and the most perfectly synchronicity is that I didn’t know it existed when I wrote these words!) It is incredibly liberating, because no longer is it a nuisance or something to be impatient with, but it is a gift, and I feel lucky that I walk through my day, through my life witnessing the gift in the experience… sometimes even if it is in retrospect – I am, after all, terribly imperfectly a human.

This is Pablo (named after a favorite poet, Pablo Neruda), and part of the reason I don’t have more pictures. He likes to sit in my lap with his head on my arm when I type my blogs… a precarious position, and typically I end up dumping him to the floor where he wanders off to find a cozy place in one of the dresser drawers that was hastily left open. I wanted to introduce him, as he is quite the fixture around here – full of entertaining capacity – he loves the little red dot laser light and will literally leap a good 5 feet up the wall to smack it with his paw – I belly laugh at this cat. He is also really good at the “shake ups”, which is where you quickly move the light back and forth and back and forth and his head follows – a couple of my girlfriends taught me of the hilarity of the photo-shake-up – relax your face and shake it side to side and make sure someone has a camera to snap the action – then everyone gathers around to see what pose they were caught in – inevitably it cracks you up! 🙂

So, onto the reason I don’t have more photos – I was holding Pablo while taking his picture with the strap dangling and something happened to scare the bejesus out of him and he bolted from my arms taking the camera (which bounced off the table and down the hallway) with him. By the time I got to it, the lens was destroyed. Shit. That was a bummer. So, we have to get a new lens. Until then I might be recycling pictures. 🙂

I am taking off on an ultimate adventure with two dear girlfriends to hike, camp, explore and breathe in the Olympic Peninsula. We have talked about this for years now, so in my book it is epic. It will keep me from updating my blog, but without a doubt it will be worth checking in once I return! Also, Saturday (TOMORROW!) is the big event – the There’s Only 1 You Women’s Expo in Stillwater, MN, where I will be a vendor sharing from my heart the work I do. I think it is going to be a pretty damn amazing time and would love to see you all there!! Wish me luck – my first expo! I’m imagining it to be somewhat farmer’s market/bartending-esque – which is to say, a lot of engaging people in conversation, smiling and making good eye contact! 🙂 Plus, I’ve got these kick ass Wildflower Earth Dumplings to give away – they are precious! 🙂

“I wonder if the snow loves the trees and fields, that is kisses them so gently? And then it covers them up snug, you know with a white quilt; and perhaps it says, “Go to sleep, darlings, til the summer comes again.” – Lewis Carroll